So, why the name Finding Abby?
I have been through what I would say is hell and back within the past 3 1/2 years. Once I become more comfortable with being open about those things, I will definitely share and hope it will help someone else too.
A big tragedy happened to my family Summer of 2014 and my dad suddenly was taken from this world too soon from a heart attack. He was only 61 years young and lived life the best he knew how but always taught me how to passionately love God and worship him in every season of life. I miss him more every day he’s not here but I have learned so many things about myself since his passing.
Like I said, a lot has been happening in my life and God has been shaking me to my core and remolding me from the inside out. He has been speaking to me through his word, dreams, church family, and even strangers. One day I was at a local coffee shop working on my computer. A lady who appeared to be homeless was looking through the newspaper (Which just so happened to be right next to me and my head) and she kept flipping through them and couldn’t make up her mind. I was getting kind of irritated myself and wanted her to pick something and sit down. As I clicked a Youtube video to watch, I was just about to put in my second ear phone piece and the woman stopped me and said: “Can I ask you a question?”. I was startled but took my ear pieces out and gave her my full attention which ended up leading to a 45-minute conversation. This woman knew a lot about the bible and God but also seemed so deeply lost. I could tell no one gives her the time of day so I gave her my undivided attention and tried to have a normal conversation with her. I introduced myself and so did she and we had a good conversation.
As our conversation was coming to an end she told me “You know Aubrey, God has different names….Like Abba, Healer, Yahweh….and if we are made in his image then maybe he gives us different names too.” I was like hmm, that’s an interesting way of thinking I’ve never heard before. It reminded me of when God changed Abram to Abraham and Simon to Peter…So yeah, she makes sense.
She said, “For example, I could call you Abby….you look like an Abby to me.” And for the rest of our conversation, she kept calling me Abby. After awhile I said my goodbyes and headed home. Now later that night and the night after that I kept hearing the name “Abby” in my head. And I was like why in all the names in the world and she called me Abby? So I felt the need to research and find out what the name “Abby” means.
The name Abby is a Hebrew baby name. In Hebrew, the meaning of the name Abby is: Father rejoiced, or father’s joy. Gives joy. The intelligent, beautiful Abigail was Old Testament King David’s third wife, described as ‘good in discretion and beautiful in form.
Reading this I immediately just sobbed and my heart was overwhelmed. I have had the hardest time not having my dad on earth to lead and guide me like he always did. He always pointed me back to God and I knew he loved me and was proud of me. But I don’t have that leadership or protection of a Father figure anymore and the fact that God through a random stranger gave me a new name and a new identity “Abby” which means Father’s joy….I couldn’t believe it. God was telling me don’t look at what you lost because all you need is me. I loved you first. You are my pride and joy. God is SO good!
So, I am on a journey of learning self-love and care. Emotionally, Mentally, and Physically. I have battled self-hatred for the longest time and some people might not believe because I am a very happy person by nature. But I have been through dark thoughts that made my mind an ugly place. God is teaching me to rely on him, heal from my past, mature in him, find my worth and value in him. Learning to love me through the process of becoming a whole person.
So this blog is just that, Finding Abby is God showing me my new identity and who I am in him. I want to share my love for basic and fun fashion and also my personal growth as I learn new things.
So here’s to the next adventure of finding who he’s created me to be! ❤
Aubrey Danielle – Create to Inspire, Inspire to Create
- 10+ years in Professional Photography; Weddings, Portraits, Food
- 3+ years in Professional Videography & Editing; Youtube & Events
- Certified Professional Makeup Artist & Hairstylist by Method Makeup School
- 3+ years Co Owner of Beauty & Lifestyle Blog – Thepixelodyssey.com
- 3+ years Beauty Content Creator on Youtube – Youtube.com/rfmh411
- 4+ years in Freelance Makeup Artistry – Worked for Benefit Cosmetics, Sephora, & Makeup Geek Cosmetics, and currently a Makeup Artist for Personify Bridal
- Singer, Songwriter, Guitar & Piano player self-taught
- Current William Jessup University student studying Psychology